I’m waiting for something more. Something that’s lets me know it won’t be this way forever. That in my life I won’t be searching for something that doesn’t really exist. I’m looking for a life with a purpose. Something or someone to live for. Someone to share it all with. I’m looking for my happily ever after but all I seem to come across are facades. Things that seem to be real in the moment but once the moment passes I’m alone… Again. I’ve almost given up. So many times I’ve looked in the mirror and just wondered … Why would anyone even want you anyways … You’re nothing special, you’re just another girl what makes you any different than the next girl? Truth is I can’t even answer that … All I know is I feel helpless. It’s like I’ve been walking in a maze by myself for a long time now and I still haven’t found my way out. I just want to find my other half my purpose.
Pretending is the only cure